Sunday, February 1, 2009 @ 11:10 PM
Departure, literally;
Why is everyone close to me leaving? Pau's going , Veron's going and now Xizi's going too..
My heart wrench when i felt the same kind of departure feeling everytime. It feels so bad , like something's important is missing from my life. One who i had gay-ed with for 2 years , one who had been with me through thick and thin for 4 years , and the last one who i always look up to like a big sis to me. I love you all , really. (L)
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My mind has been whirling these few days. Everytime i want to do something , the same old scene kept playing in my mind. The phone call from ma , the shocked faces of everyone , ma's swollen eyes and all the words that ma told us. Why , i still dont get.
Today he's cremated. Ma said aunt kept on crying and crying and refused to leave the place. She kept on saying that it's so saddening to see a person being cremated to ashes just like that. I wasnt there. But i felt it. Pain and sorrow.
I hope i can do something to make everyone feel better. Or , to liven the atmosphere in the house.
j.